wow, it's been a while, hasn't it!

I guess I have just been really busy. Well, I guess the only reason I am able to do this is because it is SPRING BREAK!

Today, is Monday, and me and Nikki are going shopping! I have so many gift cards from Christmas and some from my Birthday that I need to spend them! speaking of shopping, I am heading out the door right now...

talk to u lata~

Wow! It's been a while....almost Christmas time already...actually tomarrow is the first day of Christmas Break! oh yeah...very little homework that you can procrastinate on for over 2 weeks!

Well, I realized I missed the 15th of this month, which was the time in which I am supposed to give you a list of my favorites...so I will do it now to make up for it.

My favorite X-mas presents I ever got in my entire life...

1. My cat! Midnight...actually I got a cat bed, but they let me pick her out at an agency. (Age 9)

2. A new bike (Age 10)

3. television (Age 13)

4. Pager...ok so it sounds lame...but I really wanted one while in 7th and after I opened all my presents I all of a sudden heard my christmas tree start ringing at dinner later that night...they hid it in the tree like an ornament...it was just fun and a great present to get at the time.

5. and a bunch of other stuff that would take too long to get into.

I am alternating between writing to you, doing homework, and wrapping presents and writing cards for my friends tomarrow. God, there is a lot of stuff to do. It dosn't help that I also had to watch my sister for an hour and a half tonight. Too much to do and not enough time.

I had better get back to all of these things

Hey, I am back...just letting you know how thanksgiving went at my Grandparents house. Well, my Grandpa was too sick to cook, so he told me to do everything, and that he had everything up there for me to cook, but we just needed a few more things. My parents took the liberty of thinking that I couldn't do it, and since they had to faith in me, they bought the already made dinners from Molly Stones that pretty much all you have to do is heat up. I don't mean to say the food wasn't that bad, but it wasn't Thanksgiving to me. Grandpa was saying comments while he was at the dinner table about how the stuffing would have been better homemade, and how the mashed potatoes just wernt the same. He was trying to defend me and prove to other people that they had a right to believe in me, but unfortunately it didn't work. I am ashamed of the food so I am not going to list it for you.

My Grandpa actually ate a lot. He hardly ever eats so much, and this meal he only had to leave the table twice to throw up, which is a huge change to what he is usually like. And according to my Grandmother, this morning he was talking like nothing was wrong at all...Usually he is so sick that he can't sit at a table and talk without feeling like shit. So I am glad his holliday wasn't fucked over and that this may be a sign of him getting better.  

Oh, and we called the vet up to find out how my cat was doing. He has a kidney problem and there is a chance he might not make it. Right now he is being given medicine and is being taken care of, and they say at this moment he is sleeping soundly, so there is a chance he could pull through. Of coarse my parents blame me for this, saying I should have noticed something was wrong a while ago.

You want to know something ironic. I have only had one pet before die, and I am not including fish, even though they are pets too, they just arn't companion pets. I found out that my dog had died on Valentines day a few years back. They call me from Idaho to tell me that he was put to sleep a few MONTHS past, and that just made my Valentines Day shit! that dog was mine, and he loved me the most. When I would leave the house he would wine by my door for weeks after I left him to come back to California. And now I find out on Thanksgiving that my cat is going to die. It is weird how things happen I guess. I am begining to dread holidays....who knows who will die Christmas...Princess...Midnight? Maybe even someone else...

Ok, enough with the depressing stuff. Sometimes you just get in that kind of mood.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!

Today got off to a bad start I guess you could say. To wake me up, my mom through a shampoo bottle at me from upstairs because she couldn't come down. So that was a freaky thing to wake up to! I have to say though, it worked. I jumped out of bed so fast.

Then my mom tells me that my cat is sick. I look down at Syber and he is lying on the ground, not moving. He was all lethargic, and he was drooling out of his mouth. He is usually a frightened cat and jumps at the slightest sound, but I swear if the roof came down on him, he would watch it, and still not move. My dad took him to the vet this morning. We were lucky we found one that was open for Thanksgiving. I am so worried about him. Midnight, my other cat was worried too...she was running around the house looking for him and winning. My dad got back from the vet like 5 minutes ago, and they don't know what is wrong. Then are going to keep him there and run some tests. I hope he is ok...I don't think I am ready to let him go. It came on too suddenly. I don't want to have to say goodbye. What if he dies before I could hold him and pet him one last time...

Well, ok, scratch the sad feelings. Since this little fiasco, our house was a little in disaray, so it has been hectic. But I can't wait to eat at my Grandparents house. I am going to make a list of everything that we have cuz I love the food soo much. My Grandpa is the best cook/chef in the entire area in my oppinion, and he loves doing it. He is such a sweet guy he will even cook people food just for the hell of it. When someone is sick he cooks for them stuff that fills them up without making them throw-up, he bakes pies for people who are sad and it cheers them up, and he shares his recipes and his home grown vegetables and fruits. I am just thinking about his yummy food. DrROoOlL! I just hope he is feeling well enough to cook.

The Holidays are the time for me and my Grandpa. He cooks all the meals, and while he does that, he teaches me so I could hopefully cook like him someday. We have so much fun in the kitchen. Then I have to take him shopping. He dosn't buy people birthday presents. My Grandma does that for him and he just sometimes signs his name on the card, but then my Grandpa has to buy my Grandma something, but he never knows what to get her, so I have to take him and help him pick out something. He can't do it on his own. What we do, is me, Grandpa, Grandma, and my Great Grandma Margie go into the city and got to Union Square. We shop at all the stores, especially Macy's and Neman Marcus. Me and Grandpa seppareate from the group at that time. Then we meet and Neman Marcus at 1:00 and eat in the upstiars restaurant, the Rotunda Room. It is such delicious food. We go there so much, they know us by name and give us special tables.

Well, I have to go upstairs now and finish stuff up for Thanksgiving and cook some stuff. I always bring certain things to the meal that my Grandpa knows I can cook perfectly! I will write latter with my list of food that was there.

Kisses and Munch Munch today!

Ok, well for those of you who havn't read Josh's xanga...don't take it seriously...it was a bet. I dared him to write something about me, and he did. He took hella long to do it too...I guess he can't type good at all because he is soo slooooow at it! hehe!

Well, right now, in Drama there is this assignment that we have to write a tragedy play or screen play. I am actually having fun with it. Not that I like tragic stuff, but I love creative writing and being able to express myself. I think some of the most powerfull point come across in tragedy's because people realize the severity of the actions. It is quite empowering, but I don't feel like talking about it. I am very personal with my work. No one has ever read any of it. I am feeling scared having Ms. Leung read it. I guess I have to get over it sooner or later if I ever want anything published or produced. Maybe if I feel more comfortable I will start letting a few things out to you, maybe it will help, but don't count on it.

Since Josh complimented me on his xanga, I guess I now have to compliment him too:

I am dating a terrific man. Just ask Cathy, she will vouch for me on this. I was writing my tragedy in Drama, and it starts out with this perfect family...(the tragic part is she discovers her past and that her parents adopted her and that he past father beat her...the end gets good) Well my point is, in this perfect family, they are sitting down to breakfast, the mom cooks, the dad sitts to eat, they talk happily, daughter runs off to school. I turned to Cathy and said "I want a life like that. I never realized it, but that would be the perfect life for me!" When you read the story it sounds even more perfect than what  I just said. A tear actually formed in my eyes cuz I want it so bad, and I want it with Josh.

Wow, I really opened up there with something personal. I havn't done that yet. I think I am done embarassing myself.